Cancer sucks

I lost a friend today...her battle with the bastard C is over. She only found out she had cancer at the end of last year, they found secondaries first, lumps in her skin...took a while to find the primary...bowel cancer. It took 6 months...she didn't want chemo, but had it anyway...

She was an amazing woman, strong, very private and focused on her work and it took this bastard to break her. I had yesterday and today off work....so very tired just sleeping...I was glad not to be at work today to hear the news. I had heard she was in palliative care earlier in the week, and wasn't looking great, but had hoped she would have longer.... But I think she must have been ready to go...and leave behind the pain...

Too soon, she had more to tell in her story...

Hmmmm....burns

Who knew....two weeks after the ourselves of rads I end up it burns on my belly...sad face ...thought at first it was sweat rash from Bikram...but as I never had that I the 9 months I  have been doing it ... Ding in...I worked out ...and confirmed with a chat with  friend who has had a fair bit of radiation... She reminded me not to use oils like vitamin E...which I had been using...

So hopefully, now I am treating it with better stuff it ill improve....so itchy. Yay for QV

Also incredibly tired...came home yesterday and slept for 2 hours...then did Zumba with my girl! Week and 2 days til hols...can't wait... Still too much pain...

Is pain the new normal?

Seems to be pain and pain management seems to be constantly on my mind at the moment...the weekend was a day longer with report writing day on Friday...so I enjoyed being able to have a 10am session of Bikram...wonderful....and I was energised enough to finish my reports...yay...and only had an endone when I went to bed...

Saturday...went to the 8am Bikram class, as I was up in time...I wasn't going to stress if I missed it...but was happy that I made it...got home and again pain was not on my mind got stuck into some shopping, cleaning...and cooking, before settling in to watch the V8 super cars...standing in the kitchen took its toll, endone at bedtime...most of the day had been pain free...

Sunday...could I do it? Yeah baby...back at Bikram 8am...woot woo!!! My body loves he heat...I am getting further into the stretches and balancing better. I don't know what it is that my body is loving about Bikram... But I love that I get time pain free...and full of energy...I even scrubbed the kids bathroom from top to bottom to prepare for my sister coming to stay later this week! Probably pushed myself a bit far with the cleaning....and then cooking...

 Made a magnificent roast dinner...perfect veggies and moving them to the tale promptly dropped the whole dish of them...then had a total melt down...I couldn't stop crying...couldn't move....Pyrex dish smashed, potatoes, parsnip, beet root, and pumpkin...nothing hurt, just couldn't move and everything just turned to tears.... My beautiful girl and hubby moved me away, and cleaned up... I was devastated over spilt veggies... Today I can't believe it ... I guess it all just came out...my two boys...hid. LOL

Well, pain free weekend came to an end back at work today...pain in hip and arm, I had to take an endone in the morning...had another when I got home, and about to head to bed with another...

I did go for a walk this evening...the first in a while...trying to keep active...wondering if I am overdoing it...but trying to fight this....