Sinking in

I am feeling remarkably calm...angry that I have been dealt this hand, and teary when I think about not being there for my beautiful children at their events down the track...weddings, babies...but then hmmm calm, just getting on with it to ensure my story has a few more chapters.
Sitting in Melbourne,'s magnificent autumn sunshine makes everything fade away, and not real...I guess it will sink in more, when I see the onc in a week.