Field of Women

An emotional event. I was invited with a bunch of other people to be available for media comment. No one spoke to me specifically,  but it was great to be a part of such an amazing event. Hope funds for a cure are raised quickly.

It's all about living

Well, it's been a while. New phone, new year, and new and improved outlook.
So the onc. is very happy with progress.tumour markers are down and stable.
Finally able to start thinking longer term...it's a good feeling.
One of the first things we pencilled in when I got the news is doing the clipsal 500.,.at that stage I thought it may be my motorsport swansong. But now I reckon I will have a few more. We are even looking at doing the Bathurst 12 hour...timing is the thing.
Well I am at 8.2 and having a blast,  great team, good action, and I am doing flags first time I have really worked my arm, seems to be holding up ok.
4 flaggies today means a nice break!
Getting back into fitness mapping walks, when my phone cooperates.

Me ... today

Today's prompt for the Photo a day challenge I play is "You" so I thought I would vent a bit here with the pic I have selected for that...
I want to be strong.... like the tree
I want my roots to be deep... like the tree
I want my arms to be wide.... like the tree
I want to be flexible, bending with the wind when I need to ...like the tree
I want to give back to my world.... like the tree
I want my seedlings to grow and flourish... like my tree
I want to provide shelter and comfort to those who need it.... like the redgum
I want to live a long long life like the redgum.... and when my time is done... to become part of the universe again
  I can work towards that.... regardless of time

It's starting to sink in

I have cancer.... still apart from the pain from the surgery, do I feel any different to when I didn't know I had cancer... not really... although maybe it explains my lethargy (or maybe I am just really lazy...)
Tomorrow I have an axilla clearance, where they will be removing the rest of the lymph nodes (and checking to see how many more have cancer in them I guess). I have given up a bit of my initial finding out whatever I could about what is happening to me.... until my darling boy and my medical friend were filling me in on the lifelong changes which will occur after this surgery - easy to get infected, as there will be no lymph system to cleanse the blood... so tried to have another read up about it.... just trying not to scare Michael, but clearly he is reading up and already scared.... as am I.
Far out... it's my right arm... I can't imagine keeping it pristine and unscathed for the rest of my life... not getting scratches gardening, sewing, geocaching...(digging in the bush) that will take a lot of getting used to.
Surgery is early afternoon...going in the same incision as the mastectomy.... but drains will be in for a week.... yay - not... means I get to have drain tubes and bottles for the Field of Women on Friday.
scared....want to cry but can't...I don't feel brave I feel quite numb...
I posted the pictures of the lovely flowers I have been sent...looking for the beauty in life... the smiles on my kids faces... their hugs and love..
tomorrow will just be a glitch when I look back on it from the future